Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with intense pain behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Zachary Gross
Zachary Gross

An avid hiker and travel writer with a passion for exploring Italy's hidden natural gems and sharing outdoor adventures.